demon's rants

I know i can up with doing this blog,to talk about things that really pissed me off.Hard issues that were bullshit.I never really meant to do something personal,until now.I have been with someone for 4 years,she is the mother of my child...you get the point.So things haven't been the greatest with us,on and off always.But i have done everything for her.No matter how much i wanted not to,without question,always.I had only two requests:1. clean up,2. do't spend money we don't have,pretty easy.This has caused alot of issues.She never cleaned up,the whole four years,always me.She had complete freedom to do what she wished when she wished.I was not given that,besides i worked all the time anyway,so going out was not a option anyway.Well fast forward to the present time.She quit her job(again she gets a job for a year,and quits it the next year.really)i guessed i could work more so she can go to school,it's what she wanted to do anyway.She was in school but dropped out,so i thought this would be a good thing.She didn't go,she went out to parties and clubs.She never even stayed home to clean or do the things that need her attention.Money was being spent faster than i can make it,and i didn't know.At least for some time,then i got crazy.Trying to find out why i'm missing so much.I check online baking and see she had been pulling money out left and right,when most of the bills were not paid.She really never had a answer.So today some guy called her cell phone(really it was both of ours.hell,she put that in the phone's greating)i grab it to see what was going on.After about 2 minutes,i saw he had been calling alot,and she had been calling just as much.I also checked the times it all happened,keep in mind i wouldn't have if he didn't leave such a werid message.I recall hearing this name before,from a pair of friends.who wanted me to meet him many times before.So i called him asking what was going on,he reply was "ask her"which means there was something.I go up stairs to ask to her,she comfirms everything.A hour or so later,she tells me he is the best thing she had ever seen.The four days with him have been the best,he is the greatest has ever seen.Four fucking days.I have done everything for her for 4 years,and i have nothing for it.a year a day.The times i had with her come up to being a year a day,because he seems different.He's a guy working a angle,playing with my son.This will not be forgotten.I have done everything,for her.And i understand this over,i can deal with that.Having a relationship with someone else i can't deal with.Fucking them i can,i can deal with that.Not the other.no i will not forget this.......................